My Beloved Mother Mona, This Mother's Day is in Remembrance of your Love and Light. Your Spirit and Love lives on through your Children...

My Beloved Mother Mona, This Mother's Day is in Remembrance of your Love and Light. Your Spirit and Love lives on through your Children...
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It is Mother's Day, May 9, 2010 at 2:35 p.m. Hawaii Standard Time. To my Mother, Mona: I thank you for your selfless dedication to your husband and your children. I thank you for the beautiful individual you are. I thank you mother for putting your family first in all things. You have all your life, (even in your marriage, through neglect and abuse (both emotional and sexual), protected your children as much as you could. You grew up never being proud of your Hawaiian Heritage because your skin colour was too fair. You suffered at age 3 when your father tragically died,then you suffered at the hands of your stepfather. All you ever wanted really, was to be loved. You married into a relationship with a man that grew up with the same abuse as you did.

To have nothing, to be neglected and abused was the only life you knew. Your own children have grown up and shared the same abuse and neglect emotionally, though we were given everything materially. When you cannot love yourself, you do not know how to love others nor allow others to know and love you. You are not free to love nor fully express yourself and be all that you can be.

You left this world without wanting to see me. You forbade it for 3 years. By happenstance my brother walked into my hospital room just to find you in the hospital 3 doors down. You would have died never saying, "Goodbye" to me. You grew up in abuse and married into abuse. Your children learned what abandonment and abuse meant emotionally and verbally. We could have taken you away from all of that and cared for you but you decided to remain in that marriage.

This is a very difficult Mother's Day. God intervened and I was able to say, "I love you Mother, and Goodbye" before you died on April 25, 2010 at 8:06 p.m. at home. I will never forget the times I can remember that we shared as mother and daughter. These times of love and bonding came when you were free and not under the duress of my father, your husband.

I will never leave you nor will I ever forget you. Come to me in my dreams mother for I will be there and we will be free to fly away and be safe forever.

I love you and Happy Mother's Day.
Your daughter who would have died for you in a heart beat,
Moana ;) xo


"In This Life" - Israel Kamakawiwo'ole